Lil Nas X - SUN GOES DOWN

I wanna run away
Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life
Send me a gun
And I'll see the sun

I'd rather run away
Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life
Send me a gun
And I'll see the sun

You need an instant ease
From the life where you got plenty
Of every hurt and heartbreak
You just take it all to the face

I know that you want to cry
But it's much more to life than dying
Over your past mistakes
And people who threw dirt on your name

Since ten, I been feeling lonely
Had friends butthey was picking on me
Always thinking why my lips so big?
Was I too dark? Can they sense my fears?